Help please!! Is this wrong?

My momMy mom whoops me with a belt with a belt and hits me and pushes me all the time to the point where i have bruises. She makes me cry everyday and whenever she pushes me and i stumble she starts screaming at me to stop trying to run and stuff. Im crying right now. i know she was raped and abused as a child but does that mean she has to do it to me? my dad ddoesn'tcare. Life sucks. She always calls me bad words and cusses at me. She told me that she is never wrong and for me to ever tell her that she is wrong i would deserve to die. she scares me and if i cry in front of her she starts hitting me and says shut up before i give you a reason to cry. i am so sad that i can't even like my own mother i still love her though. lately shes been screaming for me to go to child services because shes sick of me. she isn't drunk when she does any of this. i dont know what do. i am terrified of her. i feel like i am in a living hell. i am a christian because i went into a church service once. i have a bible and pray every night, i am more patient and i have grown as a person but the situation remains the same. i love my mom but i dont like her. is this wrong? what should i do?